Entry 71115- The Well-Deep Thought Mine

My twisted belly knows it squeezes, rocks My beating heart knows meaty life-giver My chattering fingernails know clipped short, still claws My restless feet know “no dancing” say angry heels  My red streaked eyes know Burning tears come and go They know what I should’ve done.  They are punishing me for not following their lead,…

On the “Useless” Emotion of Guilt

  On the third night of a weekend retreat on Buddhist grounds, somewhere in the state of New York, I asked a question of my teachers: what is the antidote for guilt in Buddhism?  A soft-spoken nun named Chen-Ma laughed a bit and spoke into her mike after a measured pause: “In Buddhism, we consider…

Weathering a Storm of the Heart

   Heartache is a creature discomfort unlike any other known to us humans. Unlike the usual sadness or despair we experience over things like a lost job, lack of parental support, or not having as many social opportunities as we’d like, matters of lost or damaged loves are particularly and broadly wrenching and tend to…

‘Marnie’: The Complexities of a ” Sex Mystery”

“One might call ‘Marnie’ a ‘sex mystery’, if one used such words.” – Alfred Hitchcock ‘Marnie’ is by far the most extreme vision of frigidity Hitchcock ever explored. Adapted by Jay Presson Allen from Winston Graham’s novel of the same name, it serves as an oddly seductive screen commentary about the origins of psychosis in…

In Consideration of ‘The Honorable Woman’

In terms of aesthetic appeal and watchability, ‘The Honorable Woman’ is worth watching- it is a pleasure to behold. The story is framed still as a meditation and loud as a thumping heart to your ear. Watching means plunging deeper and deeper into the undercurrent of a plot that extends beyond the reaches of the…

‘Still Alice’ and the Empathetic Eye

According to the Alzheimer’s Association, one in three seniors are diagnosed with Alzheimer’s or some other form of dementia. There are currently 5 million Americans living with Alzheimer’s, and a new patient is diagnosed every 67 seconds. Given the striking number of families this disease affects, the discussion about a cure and preventative methods is…

The Extraordinary Debut: Dan Gilroy’s ‘Nightcrawler’

* Spoiler alert Awards season 2015 is brimming with brazenly self-aware stories. Well, no one can say such a thing about mediums on media with 100% certainty because filmmakers so often make the “it’s just a movie” claim like they had no intentions or responsibility about influencing public consciousness about social issues whatsoever, but I’d…

Foxcatcher’: Unforgiving Expectations

Foxcatcher is based on violent and disturbing real life events. The extent to which these events are portrayed truthfully is unknowable, but nonetheless there is an abundance of social truth in the performance of the three leading men in the film. The protagonist, Mark Schultz, is played with full belief in the body and mind…

Extreme Misogyny: “Vertigo”

I often wonder why Jimmy Stewart, an actor known for having a wholesome nature in an out of character, would play increasingly misogynistic roles in Hitchcock’s films over a span of a decade. I’m sure he had his pick of other scripts and Hitchcock wasn’t the only brilliant director around (*read any other piece I’ve…

True Love & ‘Perfect Sense’

Perfect Sense: A film that begs the question of what we are without our senses. What are tongues that can’t taste paired with ears that can’t hear and eyes that see only darkness? Does skin than cannot feel have any purpose but to hold us together in a state of literal senselessness? Is there any…

A Purist Rom-Com: A Touch of Death in “The Trouble with Harry”

From death cometh life and the living can be ridiculous! Fascinating! Oh good, good grief! Alfred Hitchcock always liked his films to have a sense of humor about them, and “The Trouble with Harry” is the height of funny stuff. There’s this man who happens to have died at the apex of everybody’s favorite hiking…

Season of Self

Gingko: BOOM- right up my nose. A scent that triggers my feelings about autumn. I am instantly happy at the scent of this fruit, smashed on the ground beneath my boots. Happiness: the joy of the harvest time for a New Yorker otherwise disconnected from most of the actual harvesting process. I’m ever excited by…